I don’t really bake cookies with Neil in this post. I’d like to. But I didn’t – I just liked the title. (Neil, if you’d like to bake cookies with me, or would like me to send you some cookies, just tell me your favorite kind and you’ve got it.)

I spent most of this weekend in my pajamas. Yesterday, I finally got up, got dressed, and ran errands with Ash in town, but as soon as we were home, I was back in my PJs. (Honestly, I think if more people spent weekends in their PJs, we’d be a happier humanity.) Despite the happy PJ time, my spirits were low.

In fact, I’ve been moping for the past few hours about Things That Suck when, out of nowhere, while reading Mr. Neil Gaiman’s Magical Tumblr, I felt this brilliant moment of clarity, as if a breeze had blown the clouds across the sky and a bright star (or possibly Venus) had suddenly winked into existence and brought with it a shining, glorious epiphany. An epiphany that lit up my mind and the night like a million fireflies and then. And then. Well. Then it blinked out. Just as quickly. Unfortunately I wasn’t really able to decipher what the epiphany as a whole was about, but I could see, just around the edges, words. And THAT meant something to me.

You see, ever since I was laid off in April, I have been slowly (and quickly), embracing many of my old hobbies. Things that at one point in my life, made me ME. Painting is one of them. I’ve been painting and drawing and sketching again and it’s ALL I ever want to do anymore. Oh I’ve missed it. I’ve also been baking. Cookies, brownies, yummy little chocolate chip bars oozing with caramel, goodies that will clog your pores and leave you guzzling milk from the carton. And I’ve been gardening. We have fourteen happy little okra plants in the front yard and a brand new garden bed in the back ready for planting. I’ve been playing video games, catching up on cooking shows, hanging out with Ash. So many wonderful things to bring me back to ME, but I have yet to do what I spent five years of college doing in order to get my Creative Writing degree.

Write.

I’m constantly jealous of my friend Meg of Bow Ties are Cool because all she does is write. She writes and writes and writes about writing and she’s wonderful at it and I wish I had her dedication and enthusiasm. But why don’t I? Why is that I sit here and wish it but don’t do it? What’s stopping me?

NOTHING.

And it’s that NOTHING that came to me while reading Neil’s many insightful responses to people asking him writing advice all the time. (Was that the epiphany? Maybe…) Neither him nor Meg ask for permission from anyone to write. They just do it. I’ve been sitting here waiting for someone to tell me that it’s okay to just sit and write. My fear is in the sitting part I think. I hate just sitting because I’m scared that it will look like I’m not doing anything. Like I’m just sitting. Staring at paper. Or a blank computer screen. And don’t ask me why I feel that doing design and development work is different – it just is. It’s for other people, at least that work. Even painting is for others – it’s for my shop. But writing? It’s not for anyone but myself. Even blogging is for the most part. It’s writing for myself, my thoughts, my beliefs, my stories. So it gets pushed away. Even as I write this, it has taken two days to write because I feel guilty writing it and keep stopping to do something else.

So how do writers stop feeling guilty for doing something that’s mostly for themselves? How do you get over your fear that people will think you aren’t a proper, productive member of society if you just write?

In school, I had classes that I was SUPPOSED to write in. And it made me happy. I was supposed to do it. Nobody could stop me, so I let myself just sit and write and the world was good and I was happy because I was MAKING THINGS UP and that was my JOB. Now? Not so much. So despite all the activities I’m doing to be ME, I’m still not entirely ME. Does this make sense? See, now I’m just writing to write. Because I like it. Blah blah blah I’m writing and nobody is in the room to stop me. Blah. WRITING.

Alright. So there’s my question. And there are my thoughts. All written down nicely for you. Now, I’m feeling guilty and unproductive so I’m going to go bake. Cookies. For Neil. Or Meg. Or for my girlfriend because she would probably be the one most likely to eat them considering she’s the only one in Texas. Go me.

THE END.

Webcomic Wednesday No. 24

Comics! They always make my Wednesday better. Enjoy!


Wondermark, David Malki
Updated: Tuesdays & Fridays


Stuff No One Told Me, Alex Noriega
Updated: Mostly a few times a week


A Softer World, Emily Horne & Joey Comeau
Updated: Almost daily
Suggested by: Isadora

Missed other #WW? Find them here:
Webcomic Wednesday 23: One Swoop Fell, Savage Chickens, Sinfest
Webcomic Wednesday #22: Housepets!, Gronk, Copper
Webcomic Wednesday #21: Lesbian Pirates, Bug Comic, Dicebox
Webcomic Wednesday #20: Hark, a vagrant, Girly, Fall On Me
Webcomic Wednesday #19: Tiny Kitten Teeth, Charles Christopher, Least I Could Do
Check out the Archives for more comics!

Webcomic Wednesday No. 23

At least I make it appear like it updates on Wednesday, right? RIGHT? Enjoy the comics!


One Swoop Fell, Mike Dutton
Updated: Twice a month (sorta)


Savage Chickens, Doug Savage
Updated: Mondays through Fridays


Sinfest, Tatsuya Ishida
Updated: Every Single Day

Missed other #WW? Find them here:
Webcomic Wednesday #22: Housepets!, Gronk, Copper
Webcomic Wednesday #21: Lesbian Pirates, Bug Comic, Dicebox
Webcomic Wednesday #20: Hark, a vagrant, Girly, Fall On Me
Webcomic Wednesday #19: Tiny Kitten Teeth, Charles Christopher, Least I Could Do
Webcomic Wednesday #18: Untitled!, Return to Sender, The Class Menagerie
Check out the Archives for more comics!

Webcomic Wednesday No. 22

Life has been crazy so the last few weeks I only tweeted comics on twitter (@DesignCoyote). But I’m back in the saddle to bring you today’s #WebcomicWednesday! Don’t forget to tweet me with the hashtag for next week’s list. Send me your favorites!


Housepets!, Rick Griffin
Updated: Mondays, Wednesdays, Fridays


Gronk, Katie Cook
Updated: Fridays


Copper, Kazu Kibuishi
Updated: Once a Month

Missed other #WW? Find them here:
Webcomic Wednesday #21: Lesbian Pirates, Bug Comic, Dicebox
Webcomic Wednesday #20: Hark, a vagrant, Girly, Fall On Me
Webcomic Wednesday #19: Tiny Kitten Teeth, Charles Christopher, Least I Could Do
Webcomic Wednesday #18: Untitled!, Return to Sender, The Class Menagerie
Webcomic Wednesday #17: Lunch Notes, Apt. C-3, Ekwara
Check out the Archives for more comics!

Webcomic Wednesday No. 21

There never seems to be a shortage of webcomics. Don’t forget to tweet me your favorites with the hashtag #WebcomicWednesday! Happy Wednesday all!


Lesbian Pirates, Megan Rose Gedris
Updates: Mondays, Wednesdays, Fridays


Bug Comic, Adam Huber
Updates: Monday through Friday


Dicebox, Jenn Manley Lee
Updates: Sometimes Wednesdays

Missed other #WW? Find them here:
Webcomic Wednesday #20: Hark, a vagrant, Girly, Fall On Me
Webcomic Wednesday #19: Tiny Kitten Teeth, The Abominable Charles Christopher, Least I Could Do
Webcomic Wednesday #18: Untitled!, Return to Sender, The Class Menagerie
Webcomic Wednesday #17: Lunch Notes, Apt. C-3, Ekwara
Webcomic Wednesday #16: Slightly Damned, Monster Commute, Faux Pas
Check out the Archives for more comics!