So we have someone coming to look at the house on Saturday and if they like the place then we are all set and even our housemate is off the hook because she’ll get to move out as well (the prospective couple looking wants our entire side of the duplex). I’m crossing my fingers that this happens.

I was all set to sign up for classes at the University of Tennessee – Knoxville when I finally got a hold of the fees department and found out that for two three credit courses, I would have to pay out of pocket almost $5,000. And since I would have been a visiting student, I would not have been eligible for financial aid. How stupid is that? So now I’m desperately looking online for the classes I need with little luck. Anyone know of good colleges with promising higher level English courses online? Please point me in the right direction.

My productivity for the night? I managed to actually pick out only a small box and a half of books that I’d take to Tennessee. This is a big step for me considering I own a considerably large library and I’m very protective of my books. But I think I got it narrowed down nicely to the ones that I want to keep close to me as we move. Most of the box consists of Neil Gaiman, Tolkien, and fantasy novels. Basically my life source.

Now to bring you something happy, go check out the pictures of Spunky Ash has been posting at Mutts n’ More! They make me smile and laugh, even when I want to curl up and cry. I’m gonna go try and be productive tonight and pack some more. The house needs to be cleaned by Saturday in time to show off to the potential new renters. Man, I really hope they take this house. That would be swell.

Okay, so maybe it hasn’t started off as happy. I’m grumpy, sick, hurt, and frustrated beyond belief by our current situation. Nothing seems to be going our way and we might end up stuck in this tiny little town in this horrible house because our housemate decided not to even try to find someone to live here even though it’s her responsibility to find someone SHE wants to live with. I want to strangle her, I’m so livid. She’s totally screwing us over, and now because of her, I won’t get my diploma and we might have to stay here over Christmas. I cannot even begin to describe how I am feeling right now.

I’m just angry.

So in an attempt to cheer myself up (though all it really did was make me even more stressed because I feel absolutely useless and worthless and a failure), I created a new winter-y theme for Snailbird.com. I do like it, I think it’s cute, and it works well from what I can see. I might fix up more about it later, but right now, I just give up. I’m so tired, I’m sick, I can’t see straight, and I want to sleep. But I doubt that will come. My body just aches right now and it’s making me grumpy.

I just want to curl up and cry. Why can’t we just get a break? Why does everything happy we want to do fall through and leave us in shambles? Why do we have such bad luck in absolutely everything? I cannot take this.

I think I will go off and cry. Happy December, everyone.

So, we’re home. It was a long drive and we came home to messy house, so I am not really in a good mood. I’m tired, I hurt, and I am not looking forward to going back to work and classes. Plus, my ears hurt and I feel sick and cold.

There is one good thing that has come of this day. Ash finally bought her camera; a beautiful Nikon D80:

I cannot wait until she gets it. She’s going to do great things with this camera, just you wait. All those pictures she posts on her blog are already beautiful, but oh I can’t wait to see what she can do with a REAL digital SLR. I wanted her to get it so badly – that’s what I wanted for Christmas – for her to get it. And now she has it. Perfect.

On a separate topic, today was the last day of NaBloPoMo, and you know what? I did it! I posted every single day. Go me. And congrats to the rest of you who did it as well (and to those who gave a good honest effort). It was a good month.

I’m gonna go take a shower I think, and try to warm up. And maybe it’ll make me feel better. Yeah. Good idea.

I seriously hate this dial-up, so I’ll make this short. I apologize for the lack of quality in posts lately, but I blame that on vacation and this computer. I just wanted to let you know we are leaving today in the midst of a snow storm advisory and I’m crossing my fingers we make it back tonight. Knock on wood.

I’ll update for real whenever we make it back home. Hope everyone is having a wonderful holiday season.