And the drama with the exes continues. Actually, it really is only one ex. My ex and I are fine, Ash and my ex are fine, it’s Ash’s ex who seems to be having problems with everything. I talked to her last night and things seemed to be fine, and then she wrote Ash a long-ass email detailing every single thing that is wrong with her (Ash) and why she is the worst person on Earth. Not to mention, she decided to include me in on this email and gave me reasons as to why I should leave Ash before she completely ruins my life. I quote, “Get out before you are damaged beyond repair.” The whole thing left me livid – not just because of what she said about me (“I see the darkness in you”) but because of all the horrible things she took out on Ash because of her own insecurities. I don’t get it – why after a year and a half of the two of them being apart does she decide now to project her fears onto me and Ash. She said she saw herself in me – afraid and cowering in a corner, no longer myself but just a reflection.

The note was cheesy, dramatic, and not at all original. Plus, it just proved to both of us that she does not know either of us. She obviously does not know me at all (darkness? I’m freakin’ buttercup some days – my optimism borders on scary happy hippie sunshine!) and Ash does not go around beating the crap out of everyone that moves. We have a healthy relationship. We fight like normal couples, and there’s no hitting or punching – nothing physical and the fights last, at the most an hour and then we’re fine again. That seems normal to me. That seems actually better than most couples. Plus, I’ve been more “ME” than I have been since high school. I do web design again, I do art, things I lost interest in for years. Ash believes in me when it comes to my dreams, and it’s because of her that I’ve felt the motivation to do these things again.

It’s gay drama. What can I expect? This is just another reason I want to move South and get out of tiny Ashland, Wisconsin.

So, am I dark? Am I a brooding individual lost to the shadows?

You know what the theme of this wordpress design is? Sunny Coyote. Because that’s what fits me. What do you think?

I hate Mondays. This Monday has been especially bad – starting off with a really nasty email from my girlfriend’s ex (who is my ex’s girlfriend now – it’s confusing, yes – we switched). Apparently she doesn’t like the fact that Ash and I both still wear our ex’s clothes and told us we should throw them away because we were just “clinging to once was.” Excuse me? I’m not going throw away a perfectly good pair of comfortable jeans (that my ex GAVE me, mind you) just because you’re uncomfortable seeing me in your girlfriend’s clothes. Hey, she still wears stuff I gave her so just suck it up. (Plus, the sweatshirt that Ash wears that her ex referred to as hers, was, in reality, Ash’s ex’s ex’s sweatshirt. Make sense?)

Anyway, I called up my ex and she and I talked about it and then talked about the drag show and had a good conversation and she said she would talk to her girlfriend and try and straighten things out. The whole ordeal is just ridiculous. At first, I was flustered and hurt by the name-calling she included, but after talking to Ash, I felt better. I felt even more better when I went to Ash’s work and played with puppies. So I guess the whole day wasn’t shot. Now I’m just waiting for Ash to get home so I can make dinner.

The moral of this post? Ex-girlfriends of your current girlfriend suck. (There are a lot of girlfriends and she’s and ex’s in this post. Confused? I think we are too.)

Here’s a question for you (based entirely on my mind wanderings during Charmed). Do you believe in magic? And if so, what is it?

Yep.

Ash has gotten me into Charmed, a show that I have spent years making fun of. Now I’m hooked, with its cheesy special effects and everything. I bought her the first season a few months ago and we’re finally just now getting around to watching it. Pru’s hot.

Yeah.

Drag show? Well, it went over okay. Better than I thought it would be, despite even the massive screw ups the sound and lighting folks had. When there are some decent pictures up, I’ll find a good one of Ash and I and post it. We, of course, were a hit. Okay, that’s a lie. Ash was great – I messed up, but people absolutely loved our “Makes me Wonder,” especially when Ash started grinding on me. Actually, the crowd just plain loves it when Ash moves, she always gets the biggest howls when she does her pelvic thrusts. The tipping was pretty bad – we used to get people who loved to tip but it’s definitely gone hill (with the economy perhaps?). I got $3 and Ash got $2, but I tipped her so it ended up being the other way around. Still, I think we were the only kings to actually get tipped. It was kind of sad.

When videos start showing up, I’ll point you that way. They usually end up on YouTube.

Okay, we’re going to finish up some of Charmed and then cuddle up for the night. Today’s been a really rough day (Sunday’s usually are for some reason) and we both just want to rest. Isn’t that what Sundays are supposed to be for?