I Have a Voice and I’m With Her: A Biography.

I am me.

I am a woman with control of my own body and the life I lead.

I am a queer cis-female married to a straight cis-male but I love all people and have always been mostly bi/pan/lesbian on any given day. I believe everyone should have the right to marry the person they love.

I am pro-choice and believe that every woman should have the option of whether they want kids or not.

I am a feminist and believe in equality for all people no matter the color of their skin, the genitals in their pants, or the gender (or no gender) that they identify as. I believe everyone should be treated with fairness and respect.

I am Pagan and believe in all faiths and send prayers to my own personal Goddess and Universe. I believe all faiths and religions and beliefs should be respected.

I am chronically ill and suffer from fibromyalgia, arthritis, and seizures as well as depression and anxiety. I believe healthcare should be accessible for all. I believe health insurance companies need to be held accountable for all the awful things they hold against victims and patients who have no advocates for themselves.

I believe in a progressive education that either teaches all religions equally or teaches no religion at all. I believe education should include the outdoors, the truth about climate change and global warming, and should embrace the idea that all cultures are important and define who we are as human beings. I believe in protecting our Earth for our children and giving them the education and tools so they may do so for their own futures.

I believe in the separation of Church and State and that the Unites States of America should NOT be defined as a Christian government and that “Under God” should not be in our Pledge of Allegiance. I may believe in your chosen God but I do not pledge my allegiance to Him.

I believe that everyone should have the right to own a gun and I believe we need more gun control and tighter restrictions that people must meet in order to buy said gun.

I believe that land should belong to people and not corporations. That protecting people should always come before protecting a company. I believe that corporations and governments need more restrictions on what they can and can’t do to the land and water we depend on.

I believe in democracy and I believe our political system is corrupt.

I believe we would all do better as a species if we all spent a few weeks or months out of the year living off the grid and reconnecting with the Earth. Studying her and loving her and rediscovering all that she has given us. Not tied to wires and phones and satellites.

I believe we should give more money to NASA because we cannot be the only ones in this great big Universe and maybe those others can help teach us to be better at living our lives and seeing meaning in the little things.

I believe everyone should adopt an animal or buy a plant and learn responsibility for another living being.

I believe in trust, faith, and pixie dust. I believe in things we can’t see. I believe in Karma and in reincarnation and I’m not entirely sure but I think this may be the first time I’ve been human because I still get very confused over daily human life.

I am afraid for the future of our world. I am afraid for our children’s children. I am afraid for the Earth and all the damage that is being done for her. I am afraid not enough is being done to save the Great Barrier Reef or the Arctic ice at the North Pole or Antarctica in the south. I am afraid I am only one person and that I am not enough to make a difference in what’s important.

I am afraid I won’t leave a legacy behind and I am most afraid that my name will not be remembered after I’m gone. My name is Nicole Joanna Audrey Jeske and I don’t want to be forgotten.

Husband and I voting.

I write this because I want you to know who I am. I want you to understand what I am fighting for and why today’s election is so important to me. Politics are personal, no matter what anyone tells you. People vote with their beliefs, with their heart.

I am a white, queer Pagan woman married to an outspoken liberal atheist man. I have a Jewish non-binary trans best friend and a beautiful nose-pierced baking pseudo-wife who are my heart and soul. I am made of the Love that surrounds me, it makes my heart continue to beat every day. I fight for these people, for my friends, for my family, for my community.

This election year has been one filled with much hate and contention. I have unfriended and even blocked several people this year on social media. Not for who they are voting for – but because of things they have said or done or posted in the name of politics. Because I cannot abide by hate. I cannot stand by and watch an old friend post a video of lighting a Pride flag on fire and stating they wished they could do this to “the abomination of gays.” I will not remain in ties to someone who posts that trans people should have their genitals mutilated to “show them who’s boss.” I will not continue to be “Facebook friends” with someone who shares anti-Muslim, anti-trans people, anti-gay, anti-POC, anti-equality anything. I cannot be friends with anyone so hateful and hurtful who would actively go out of their way to do others harm simply because they are different.

Inauguration 2009

On the National Mall for the Inauguration of Barack Obama, January 2009.

So I want to you to know who I am. And if you don’t like who I am, and you oppose the things that make me who I am, you are free to distance yourself from me. Chances are, we aren’t that great of friends anyway. I won’t hate you for who you vote for, but if you’re voting for someone because you actively and vocally spew hatred for another group of people you share this Earth with, I will not stand with you.

Today is going to be a very long and stressful day. I’ll be sending out as much Love into the Universe as I can.
Please join me.

A Note About Iran

The following post is a copy-and-paste message from one_hoopy_frood about what is going on in Iran and why you should care. A lot of people still don’t know about everything that is happening over seas, but here’s a rough summary that should put you in the know. My heart is with the people of Iran right now. I hope we can help get you out of this mess.

If you are reading this right now, you have more luxury than someone in Iran could ever hope for right now. If you are watching TV or a video on youtube, updating your status on Facebook, Tweeting, or even texting your friend, you are lucky. If you are safe in your home, and were able to sleep last night without the sounds of screaming from the rooftops, you need to know and understand what is happening to people just like you in Iran right now.

They are not the enemy. They are a people whose election has been stolen. For the first time in a long time, a voice for change struck the youth of Iran, just as it did for many people in the United States only seven months ago. Hossein Mousavi gained the support of millions of people in Iran as a Presidential candidate. He stands for progressiveness. He supports good relations with the West, and the rest of the world. He is supported with fervor as he challenges the oppressive regime of Mahmoud Ahmadinejad.

On Friday, millions of people waited for hours in line to vote in Iran’s Presidential election. Later that night, as votes came in, Mousavi was alerted that he was winning by a two-thirds margin. Then there was a change. Suddenly, it was Ahmadinejad who had 68% of the vote – in areas which have been firmly against his political party, he overwhelmingly won. Within three hours, millions of votes were supposedly counted – the victor was Ahmadinejad. Immediately fraud was suspected – there was no way he could have won by this great a margin with such oppposition. Since then, reports have been coming in of burned ballots, or in some cases numbers being given without any being counted at all. None of this is confirmed, but what happened next seems to do the trick.

The people of Iran took the streets and rooftops. They shout “Death to the dictator” and “Allah o akbar.” They join together to protest. Peacefully. The police attack some, but they stay strong. Riots happen, and the shouting continues all night. Text messaging was disabled, as was satellite, and websites which can spread information such as Twitter, Facebook, Youtube, and the BBC are blocked in the country. At five in the morning, Arabic speaking soldiers (the people of Iran speak Farsi) stormed a university in the capital city of Tehran. While sleeping in their dormitories, five students were killed. Others were wounded. These soldiers are thought to have been brought in by Ahmadinejad from Lebanon. Today, 192 of the university’s faculty have resigned in protest.

Mousavi requested that the government allow a peaceful rally to occur this morning – the request was denied. Many thought that it would not happen. Nevertheless, first a few thousand people showed up in the streets of Tehran. At this point, it is estimated that 1 to 2 million people were there. Mousavi spoke on the top of a car. The police stood by. For a few hours, everything was peaceful. Right now, the same cannot be said. Reports of injuries, shootings, and killings are flooding the internet. Twitter has been an invaluable source – those in Iran who still know how to access it are updating regularly with picture evidence. People are being brutally beaten. Tonight will be another night without rest for so many in Iran no older than I am. Tonight there is a Green Revolution.

For more information:
here and here
Here – near constant updates
Here – ONTD_political live post
@StopAhmadi, @ProtesterHelp

دنیارابگوییدچطورآنهاانتخاباتمان دزدیده اند
“Tell the world how they have stolen our election.”


“The road ahead will be long. Our climb will be steep. We may not get there in one year or even one term, but America — I have never been more hopeful than I am tonight that we will get there. I promise you — we as a people will get there.”

Ladies and Gentlemen, the New President of the United States, Barack H. Obama. Change inspires Historic Victory. We will not give up the fight we have only started.

Yes we can. Yes we can.

I’m finally going to bed. Good night. Tomorrow is going to be Bright.

The future is Bright.

I cannot even function right now.

Obama won.

I was on the phone with my mom when CNN projected Obama as President. I lost it and started crying I was so grateful and happy and just a mass flood of emotions. After getting off the phone with her, I turned to Ash and the waterworks turned up. I love her. I love my girlfriend. Things won’t change right away, hell, we don’t even know how much they’re gonna change, but things will get better.

I was a staunch Hilary supporter and found Obama pompous, arrogant, and ego-centric, but he grew on me, especially in the last few months. And tonight, I sat with a blanket wrapped around me, biting my already-too-short nails, and waited to hear the verdict on our future.

There is hope. We did it right.

There is hope.

A Plea to the Powers that Be.

We voted. Have you?

Obama for President. Please let it be. Let it be. Equal rights are too big of an issue for me to want anyone else as President. You would think that more people would believe in it, but they don’t. Sad, but true.


I don’t want to go four more years feeling like a second class citizen because of my sexual orientation. I don’t want to keep feeling sub-human for loving who I do. I want to be equal. Dammit, I am equal, but is it selfish of me to want everyone else to see me that way? I think it’s my right as a citizen of the United States. It’s my right as a human being.

I want to stand beside my girlfriend, and tell her I love her, and someday say “I Do,” and I want to do it all in my own country if we want, and I want it to be legal. I want everyone to see us as a legitimate couple. It shouldn’t matter, really, but it’s become a matter of face now – I won’t back down and let someone tell me I shouldn’t be allowed the same privileges as a heterosexual couple simply because I’m a woman in love with another woman. I deserve equality. We deserve to be equal.

Obama for President.


Lesbians for Obama!

Of course I’d be hit with the “No People” bug today. Of all days. A little look into my not-so-secretive personal life: I was diagnosed with Social Anxiety Disorder a few years back (among other things). Nowadays, it’s better than what it used to be (I’ve been known to have panic attacks in malls and break down into tears whenever I had to leave the house for school), but I’ll still have my off days, usually when it’s triggered by something. Yesterday, I had a slight break down due to an uncomfortable message I got online, and today I’m having residual feelings of negativity.

What this basically means is that I’m going to have a hard time stepping out of the house and being around people. It’s election day. There’s no way I’m not going in to vote. I’m just hoping that by the time we get there (after noon when Ash gets off for work), people will be too busy registering and voting to look at me, because, really, it’s the looks that set me off. If I notice one person looking at me, I crumble into a pathetic pile of incomprehensible mush. Maybe in the next few hours I’ll be fine again and thing won’t set me off, but we’ll just have to see.

Anyway, I’ve finished my breakfast of strawberry yogurt and pinapple, and I’m going to try and be productive until Ash gets home. Time for some art!