Blessed Mabon! Some Reflections & Gratitude.

Happy Mabon!

The circle is open but never broken.
Merry meet, merry meet, and merry meet again. 🍄

Happy Mabon my friends and blessed be. Today (last night) marks the beginning of my favorite time of the year: Fall! It is the Autumn Equinox and as the Crone begins her transformation, I can’t help but feel this is my own transformation, for better or worse. Today the wheel turns towards a longer night and shorter day, giving our minds more time to reflect on balance, healing, and letting go of the things behind us.

Today is a very personal day of celebration and contemplation. I sat at my alter and meditated for awhile on what it all means to me. This time last year I was just now discovering how sick I was getting and realizing that this drastic change to my life was only beginning. September marks 1 year of unemployment, 9 months of being dependent on my wheelchair, and what feels like a lifetime of questions that my doctors are still struggling to find answers for. It’s been a frustrating year of disappointments and scary uncertainties. But through it all, I have found light and stability in my friends and family. Today I turn my mind to celebrating the people who have been there through my heartaches and body aches, who have kept me company while dizzy from medications, who have held me in their arms while I cry at the unfair changes my body has made. From cuddly Xena marathons, braiding my hair, sending me cheer up songs, playing board games or DnD, and a thousand other things, my friends have wrapped me up in their love and have made sure I never feel alone. Today I celebrate them and reflect in the gratitude I feel for the balance they bring my life. I love you all so much. Thank you for your kindness and unwavering support and understanding.

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My alter is ready for Autumn and so am I. I continue to take my life one day at a time and I put my faith in my friends and my Gods and myself. Today I will work to find balance and acceptance as this old Crone moves forward with renewed vigor.

Blessed be. 🍎🍂✨

Being Sick & Good that Comes With It

For the past three weeks or so, Ash has been sick with some cold/illness/death/plague that has finally started to give her a break only to jump to me as host. I am now laid up in bed, too sick to stand, and coughing too much to talk. So I shall blog.

Here is a list of my favorite things to do while sick that generally perk me up and help me get through the whole thing faster.

1. Sleep

Normally I feel guilty if I take a nap in the middle of the day, but when I’m sick, it’s generally all I want to do. Not that I don’t still feel guilty about it, but at least other people don’t get as irritated with a sick person that sleeps like they would if a perfectly normal and healthy person wants to catch a few Zzzs when they have time. Which still isn’t fair, but ah well. Sleep is good. And good for a sick person.

2. Watch TV

I’m not a big TV-watcher. I make up for my lack of big-screen watching with staring at my computer for hours on end, but when I’m sick, sometimes the mind-numbing effects of a stupid TV show or a no-brain movie can be comforting. You don’t have to think or move or type or work; all you have to do is keep your eyes open. Sometimes I even fail at that, but it’s no big deal because nobody will bother you about resting your tired eyes (see point #1).

3. Be Pampered

I’m a big baby when I’m sick. A lot of the time I’ll fight whoever is trying to make me take care of myself and pretend I’m fine and that I don’t want anyone to take care of me, but I do secretly like being pampered and tucked in and fed soup and tea and, basically, being treated like an invalid. Sometimes you just need that, you know?

4. Reading

Reading is one of my biggest passions, but I rarely ever get to do it. Lately, because I’ve been sick, I’ve been devouring book after book and rediscovering how much I love to read. There’s just something about getting sucked into a good book – you don’t have to be yourself anymore. You can be any character in any world and you don’t have to be sick and laid up in bed. You can leave everything behind. It’s an escape.

5. Ignore Everything

If you’re like me, you almost always have a large list of to-do items. When you’re sick, everything on that list can wait (okay, almost everything – you can’t exactly put off bills or someone’s wedding or use the coupons that expire tomorrow), and nobody is going to say otherwise. You’re sick – how can anyone expect you to be competent enough to code an entire calendar in CSS or create a design for a photoblog when you can’t even brush your own teeth? Need ideas on how to ignore everything? Please see the four previous points.

I’m sure there are more things that could be added to this list (and if you think of any – let me know), but I am far to sick, dehydrated, and completely out of it to really type anymore. I think I’m going to go crawl into bed, turn the TV on, grab a book, have someone make me soup, and ignore everything.

That’s one thing you can still do while sick – multitask.