The last 24 hours have been a quiet one in our household. Yesterday I broke the news through tears to my husband who then wandered the house repeatedly mumbling “Shit, shit shit. Well shit” to himself before disappearing into the bedroom to take a 3 hour nap (this is how he processes things). I cried myself to sleep next to him. We both idolized Carrie Fisher. The engagement rings we wear around our neck say “I love you” and “I know.” The His/Her towels in the bathroom read the same thing. Images of Carrie as Leia Organa are in every room of our house. Posters, book covers, my favorite coffee mug, even the handmade fleece blanket on our couch. She has been my hero since my dad first watched Star Wars with me when I was a kid. She’s everywhere I look. There’s no escape.

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Not that I want one. I want her in my life forever. A constant reminder to be as unapologetically me as possible. Wild, crazy, loud, truthful. A princess. A huttslayer. A general. A queen in everything she did. Her acting made her famous, her words made her inspiring, her personality and boldness made her larger than life. My fierce love for her spirit doesn’t end with her passing. She made it her mission to be honest about everything: her life, her mental illness, her past. She was an open book and never once apologized for it. I want to live like that. I’ll work towards that. To be an advocate like her. To be a beautiful, wise, fierce warrior princess with wit and charm that strike as sharply as a blaster pistol. It takes work. But Carrier Fisher did it all. The galaxy is emptier now without her.

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“I laugh a lot, actually. A lot. I’ve gotten to an age where I enjoy my life. I’ve spent enough time struggling with it, and at this point it’s living on one side of the magnifying glass; I stay on the side of making big things appear small. I enjoy myself and I have a lot of good friends, good relationships. You learn to get there. Having gone through a lot of stuff I’ve gone through—I don’t want to do that stuff anymore. I take care of myself best as I can. I do the best imitation of maturity I can possibly muster.” – Carrie Fisher

I will take care of myself best as I can and I will do the best imitation of maturity I can muster. Her legacy will not be forgotten. Thank you for everything, Carrie Fisher. You will always be royalty to us.

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EDIT: 12/28/16 8:00pm – Debbie Reynolds, I’ve just learned, miss her daughter so much, she joined her. I’m stunned. I can’t believe how fast people pass. How easy it is for someone to be here and then just gone. My heart and love and support go out to Debbie and Carrie’s family, friends, and fans. I’m looking forward to 2016 being done. This is just. Too much.

National Teddy Bear Day!

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Me and my Hobbes

It’s National Teddy Bear Day! Hobbes here is my oldest and dearest of friends. We’ve been together since the very first day I came to exist in this world (meaning he was given to me the day I was born). In that regard, he’s probably a lot older (and wiser) than I am. So I take his guidance into careful consideration. Today he has advised that we stay in bed and I’m not one to argue. Thanks for always being here for me, Hobbies. You’re the best.

“The history of the Teddy Bear is believed to have started in 1902 with President Theodore Roosevelt on a bear hunting expedition in Mississippi. During the hunting trip he refused to shoot a defenseless bear cub. This story was circulated and was eventually captured in a political cartoon by Cliff Barryman. The image then sparked shopkeeper Morris Michtom imagination and he created the first known stuffed bear in President Roosevelt’s honor.” – Teddy Bear Day

My favorite famous Teddy bear has to be Winnie the Pooh. That seems like a pretty common answer, but I grew up on the books and I can’t help but continue to love this silly old bear. I read them all my sisters and I will read them to my own kids if we ever have any. Happy National Teddy Bear Day!

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Andy Dwyer Quotes as Motivational Posters

A friend of mine sent me this list and it brought me such joy that I felt it deserved it’s very own blog post, not just another link on twitter. Brought to you by the awesome listmakers at Buzzfeed:

If Andy Dwyer Quotes were Motivational Posters.

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It’s no secret that Parks and Recreation is one of my favorite shows ever. I actually couldn’t stand Andy when he was first introduced but after he became a main character, he became much of a lovable goofball and one of my favorite characters with some of the best lines. Here are just a few of my favorite quotes from Mr. Dwyer himself.

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See more of Andy’s inspirational quotes over on Buzzfeed! (And thanks to Kendra, for sending it to me!)

May The 4th Be With You!

May is my favorite month for several reasons. One, it’s my birthday month. May 19th (write it down). Two, it’s Geek Pride Day on the 25th (grab your towel). And Three. Today. Best holiday ever.

Happy Star Wars Day!

Happy Fairy Day!

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According to my spiffy Twig the Fairy calendar, today is Fairy Day! If you know me, you know of my love for all things magical and fantastical and child-like. Twig (who you can see in the above picture – she’s on the left) is my favorite part of all the Renaissance Faires I attend and I always make it a point to find her. More often than not, she is surrounded by children with their parents standing just beyond the circle, oftentimes more awestruck of her than the kids.

Make sure you spread the love and happiness today. You can find out more about the beautiful Twig at her website, facebook, or twitter. Have a happy and glittery Fairy Day!